ah, home.

this is what lil does when i've been spending too much time making pretty things and not enough time worshipping at the altar of her gorgeousness. right in the middle of the 12x12 paper, too, see how nicely it curves up to make a nest for her pretty little self? um, yeah.

so i have been watching a documentary about jonathan larson's life. you know, the guy who wrote Rent? he died the night before opening night, and on this documentary people keep talking abut how when he died suddenly we lost this great talent who was destined to create so many more amazing works but i think he was here for exactly what he was here for- he was an angel on a mission, if you will. he was here to give the world that gift and to see it brought to fruition, and as soon as he had completed that mission he went home. he was inspiration itself- the man worked on his art constantly, literally. worked exactly as many hours as would pay the rent and spent the rest of his time creating. the urgency he felt about creation resonates with me and i am remembering what i loved about being in the theatre. and how i can continue to do what he was doing, doing this thing that is my own thing. i've been thinking about missions, and history, and art. i've been marveling how this torch gets passed sideways and backwards and all kinds of random ways in this community. and i have been inspired to be inspired. and i have been reading francesca lia block, toni morrison and giving myself time to breathe. been writing in little books again. had a much-needed lunch with an old friend. went to three different bookstores to see where my book was displayed. traveled four hours round trip to walk down my favorite street. been thinking through a book i want to make with my sisters. spent two hours in a field on monday, stalking a family of wild bunny rabbits and taking their photos. communed with trees and had a good chat with a best friend. it's truly wild- there are so many things gone awry every single day- so many aspects of life at which i am completely incompetent- but most days, even the shitty ones, i really really love my life.